And ... how willing are you to make those changes yourself?
If you don't make them who will?
And if you wait around for someone else to make the changes are you willing to accept the type of changes they make?
Perhaps you don't really want anything to change. Perhaps you secretly (or not so secretly) want it all to stay like is - sure that some day soon you will suddenly overcome the difficulty and everything will be OK...
Perhaps you dream that this is just a nightmare ... one you will wake up from. So you wait ... inactive ... hoping something or someone will come along to help you avoid the necessity of having to do anything to make the changes yourself.
How many more times are you planning on 'losing it', falling apart or crashing before you acknowledge that something in your behaviour and your head space needs to change so that you can let go of this mode of living - or half-living and move into living whole-heartedly ... fully ... connected?
Somewhere, sometime, this cycle needs to stop if you are going to climb out of the space you are in right now.
Change only occurs when the pain of staying the same becomes too great
... are you done yet?